Personal Background
This memorial website was created in loving memory of our beloved baby, Elijah Romari Boone who was born on September 09, 2003 and passed away suddenly in his sleep on May 3, 2005 at the tender age of 1 year 7 months and 24 days.
We will remember you forever and for always for you are the
Light and Love of Our Lives.
"...A perfect life was his, all joy and love, with tears to make it brighter--
sweet as summer's day beside the Housatonic. The world loved him; the
women kissed his curls, the men looked gravely into his wonderful eyes,
and the children hovered and fluttered about him. I can see him now,
changing like the sky from sparkling laughter to darkening frowns, and
then to wonderful thoughtfulness as he watched the world.
"...Blithe was the morning of his burial, with bird and song and sweet-
smelling flowers. The trees whispered to the grass, but the children sat
with hushed faces. And yet it seemed a ghostly, unreal day--the wraith of
life."
-W.E.B. Du Bois
on the loss of his son Burghardt Gomer Du Bois
1897-1899
My breath
died
....with yours!
My heart
stopped
....with yours!
My life
ended
with yours!
Nothing is left to me!
except the Love
you brought.
....Always, always,
...I shall have
your Love!
-Joan Walsh Anglund,
in memory of Todd Emerson Anglund, 1954-1992
THERE IS NO PAIN GREATER THAN THE DEATH OF A CHILD...
My 19 m/o baby Elijah passed away on Tuesday morning, May 3rd 2005. He would have turned 20 months that following Monday. We've already held his funeral (the day before Mother's Day) but the cause of death is still unknown. They are still waiting on the results for the tests they are running (toxicology and cultures), but after doing research on SIDS, I know that is what happened with my baby.
Monday May 2, 2005, Elijah woke with a fever. I let him sleep after breakfast and when he woke for lunch I gave him a peanut butter & jelly sandwich and Tylenol chewable tabs. He laid down for his mid-afternoon nap on our couch in the den. I walked into the den an hour later and saw him sitting up looking at TV; he looked better, but even when he was sick he was always smiling and playful. When my older two boys got home from school we went to the grocery store so that I could make something for dinner that night. After dinner I sat at my computer and my oldest son Roshan asked if I could play his favorite song "Numb (Encore)", and so I did. All three of them...Roshan 9....Lorenzo 4....and Elijah 19 mos were dancing all around me as I watched. Elijah no longer had a fever and I even made a point of saying "My baby's not sick anymore" and picked him up and hugged and kissed him. My husband came around the corner from the kitchen, smiling at the site of Elijah dancing because I had mentioned to him earlier that Elijah had a fever. After the kids were done dancing and playing I brought them all upstairs. I laid Elijah on my bed so that he could fall asleep. I sat on our futon folding the rest of the laundry and watched as he fell asleep. All the while my husband was in the shower. When I finished with the clothes...I grabbed Elijah and picked him up off of my bed, and at that time my husband came out of the shower and saw me carrying Elijah out of our room. He was sleeping but he still was peeking out of his right eye at me and I just smiled. I kept kissing him and smelling his sweet cheeks before I laid him in his playpen...not knowing that it was going to be the last time I would see my baby alive.
Child's Prayer
"Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray thee Lord my soul to keep
If I should die before I wake
I pray thee Lord, my soul to take"
My husband woke me up the next morning as it was routine for us all to get up around 5 a.m. to take him to work. He usually gets the older two boys and I get Elijah, but I just could not get up that morning. My husband then woke me up and told me to look at Elijah. I got up from bed and walked out of our room into the hallway and saw my husband sitting at the top of the steps with his face in his hands, telling me to look at Elijah. My heart was beating really fast and I was afraid of what I was going to see because if it wasn't of anything to worry about my husband would've had Elijah in his arms because he had just left from the kids' room. I could feel in my heart that something was terribly wrong but to what extent I wasn't sure. I walked into the kids' room and over to Elijah's playpen. Elijah was lying on his stomach with his face down in the pillow. I leaned over to pick up Elijah from his playpen and he was already stiff. I turned him over and death was staring at me in the face. It was the scariest thing I have ever seen in my life, and for that moment my heart just stopped. I didn't even feel as if that was my Elijah I was holding. I had to put him down quick and run to the phone. I called 911 and paramedics, police officers and even the fire department showed up at my house that morning. The operator tried to tell me to do CPR on my baby but I just kept crying and yelling that I couldn't even look at my baby...that I couldn't even hold my baby. The paramedics all went up into the room and I know they were doing what they could to resuscitate Elijah but I already knew in my heart that my baby was gone.
I'm still in shock over the loss of our baby. I'm going through so many emotions but this is the first time anything like this has happened so close to home...let alone in my home.
A medical examiner performed an autopsy on Elijah and found nothing but colitis (inflammation of the colon) and gastroenteritis (stomach flu) and a bit of diarrhea, but Elijah was not dehydrated. They performed other tests on him to find a definitive cause of his death but I'm 99% positive that those results will return inconclusive and we will be left with SIDS as the cause of death for our Elijah.
Any words of comfort are welcomed and appreciated for this is what we need during this difficult time in our lives.
Weeping may endure in the night
But joy cometh in the morning.
--Psalms 30:6
You are my sunshine
My little sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are gray.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away
The other night, dear,
While I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken
So I hung my head and cried.
*Picture courtesy of Diane
A SPECIAL MESSAGE TO OUR BABY BOY
When we hear a baby laugh, it is the loveliest thing that can happen to us.
- Sigmund Freud
My darling Elijah you will forever be in our hearts and I love you more than words can say. You are my sunshine and you make me happy. Thank you for leaving us with so many memories that I've taken for granted. I'm glad you broke the lamp in the den, tore the wallpaper off the kitchen wall, pulled the lenoleum tile from the floor and the ceramic tile from the bathroom, and pulled off the handle on mommy and daddy's dresser, and continuously pulled the curtain from our room down, always sat at my computer and turned the monitor and the clock radio on, shutting every single door that was left open, pressing whatever it was that had buttons. I miss cleaning and you standing there in awe. I still have your little vacuum and little broom, your sippy cups I had just bought because you threw away all your other ones without me knowing. We still have your toys that play music and they got on my nerves before, but now I'm so thankful you played with them as much as you did because now when I hear the tunes I simply think of my baby. I still have the sweat jacket you wore the day before you passed away and it smells just like you. Your only two words were "Daddy" and you had just learned to say "Nigh-Nigh" (night-night), although you would carry on a conversation with a bunch of gibberish as if you knew we understood what you were saying. I miss braiding your hair and brushing your hair, especially whenever I took your braids out and you'd have this big bush sitting on the top of your head that moved everytime you waddled around the house. The expressions you used to make are still fresh in my mind and I smile at the thought of them. I miss you Elijah and You will forever be in my heart. Daddy gave you both of your blue trucks that you loved to carry around so much; he placed one in each hand. I cannot wait until we are reunited with each other so that I can see you wearing the shoes I bought to go with the white suit you wore the day we said good-bye.
Mahal Kita Elijah
(I Love You Elijah)
Your life will be celebrated for as long as I live...This is My Promise to You My Darling Elijah!!!
What is overpowering is simply the fact that a baby is life. It is also a mess, but such an appealing one that we look past the mess to the jewel underneath.
- Bill Cosby, Fatherhood
But grief still has to be worked through. It is like walking through water. Sometimes there is an enormous breaker that knocks me down. Sometimes there is a sudden and fierce squall. But I know that many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it.
-Madeleine L'Engle, Two-Part Invention
TO OUR VISITORS:
Dear Lord, thank You so much for my baby's smiles.
His laughter fills me with joy. He is so precious to me, God.
I don't have enough words to express my love and gratitude. All I can say is thank You.
For the kindhearted visitors to this site that we've never met A special Thank You from the bottom of our hearts to all that have lit a candle in memory of Elijah and have left their condolences. It just goes to show how thoughtful and supportive people can be at a time like this. Your words mean more to us than anything because you've taken the time to offer your condolence to a complete stranger and that is very thoughtful of you. Your words of comfort brings us a step forward to being at peace during this tragic and difficult time in our lives and are greatly appreciated. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers and thank you again for your thoughtfulness and compassion. You would have enjoyed Elijah's company.
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For the mothers that have lost a baby...please do not hesitate to e-mail me as that is what I need right now, and I'm sure you need as well. You are the only ones that truly understand the greatness of this pain I am feeling and we can comfort each other and try to ease each other's sorrow. Please feel free to insert your child's name in your message/tribute so that they can be prayed for and acknowledged as well.
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For friends and family that have left a message expressing their sympathy and those that lit a candle in Elijah's memory, we also Thank You from the bottom of our hearts. We love you all and the support you have given us is overwhelming and we are grateful. You seem to take situations and even people for granted but when something like this happens you stop to think about the little things because you never know what will happen tomorrow. We love you all and appreciate your words of wisdom, comfort, sympathy, and encouragement. You all have helped make us a stronger couple for our other two sons. Your support and love is our foundation...and that is what is holding us strongly together. We appreciate every single one of you and love you with all our hearts.
Maria & Rodney
Wewould like to give a special personal thank-you toall that have supported us the first couple of days following this tragedy. You have all helped in many ways and we appreciate your being there in our time of need. We cannot thank you enough and...
We Love Each and Every One of You:
Family
Lito & Mila Javier, grandfather & step-grandmother
Luis Javier "JR", uncle
Joshua Javier, uncle
Celerina & Domingo Javier, great-grandmother & great-grandfather
Emalyn & Neil Datu, great-aunt and uncle
Danilo & Emily Javier, great-uncle and aunt
Virgilio & Alma Javier, great-uncle and aunt
Grandma Remy, great-great aunt
Emy Genuino, uncle
Cora Wilson, aunt
Emma & Larry Mason, aunt & uncle
Grace Boone, aunt
Francene McKinnis, aunt
Scylene Shelton, aunt
Linda Faulkins, aunt
Robbernette & Derek Brumfield, aunt & uncle
Tonya McKinnis & "R" Christie, cousin
Derrick Mason & Dendy Fowler, cousin
Jennifer Faulkins, cousin
James Faulkins, cousin
Lamont "Chief" McKinnis, cousin
Friends
Ronald De Leon
Victoria De Leon
Robie Ronase
Joann Edwards
Juliet Sawi
Virginia Sawi
Kimberly Cannon
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A special thanks to the kids/teens for helping keep Roshan & Lorenzo busy...we are just as grateful for your company...
Jumilyn, Dallas, Courtney, Trevonte, Krysta, Destinee, Jannelle & "JJ", Anthony, Abbeygayle, Neilson & Emilio
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A special thanks to Officer Doug Twiddy, Chaplain, for just caring during this time in our lives.
Grief is in itself a medicine.
-William Cowper, "Charity"
Dearest Mom,
I know you couldn't be here and you tried your best. Maybe it was better that you were visiting the
When we talked on the phone you asked what he was wearing the day of his funeral. I told you "a white suit" and afterwards you told me that as you were talking to grandma Simplicia there was this white butterfly that flew all around you and you said to grandma..."That's Bolingling". He will always be your Bolingling and will always be in your heart. I love you mom.
Love,
Jing-Jing
"Love Lives On Forever in the Heart"
Love lives on forever
in each memory and thought
Of the special ones who meant so much
and the happiness they brought.
Love lives on forever--
it will never fade away--
For, in our hearts, our loved ones
are with us every day.
-Author Unknown
Latest Tributes
beautiful angel - to the mummy and daddy of sweet baby elijah ,im so very sad to hear of your loss.
your son was a precious gift from god ,and now rests amoung the angels.
your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
goodnight ,godbless little Elijah ,
sharon ,stewart ,and girls xxxx - from sharon
RIP LIL Elijah - RIP Precious lil one,your a sweet lil angel now watching voer your mom and dad.My Prayers and thoughts are with and just remember that your son is in a wonderful place,where you will meet again someday..he is an angel now watching over you..i know its not where you wanted him.Hes always with you in heart an angel by your side. - from Charmaine Dominix
baby boy - words can not express how sorry i am for your loss i dont know how i would cope if that happened to me. this website is a brilliant tribute for your beautiful baby boy god bless you and your family - from gemma. h
Friend - I am sorry that you son pass away i will prey for him all the time now
- from Amanda
Holding U Close In My Heart - I know that I do not KNOW you personally, but I do not need to.As a mother myself,my heart goes out to you & your family. I came upon this site tonight looking for comfort, but now I just want to give it. Keep living & loving for Elijah and also for your other children. I know some days are much harder than others, but when you feel like quitting, just remember your baby boys' beautiful, angelic smile. Many hugs to your boys, and you and your husband will be remembered in my prayers. - from Jean
Latest Memories
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Valerie - I am so sorry to hear of the losing of your son. I losy me baby brother Febuary 23,2007 and I know the sorrow and the heaviness that's on your heart but you have to look towards the hills from where your health comes. Death is such a powerful thing but he makes no mistakes. Elijah will always remain in your heart. You have to be strong and remember the good times and the beautiful smile and let it erase all sorrow. I will put you in my prayers and remember and please never forget your still a Mother and Your still a Father.
teianna - i know how u feel even know he's not my family i am 9
Maria Alfonso fr San Antonio - Sorry Mama, for the pain you are going through. But live and love for him.
Dorie - I have been searching the internet for some type of support group for parents who have lost their children to SIDS.To my dissappointment there are no support groups that are really available for parents of SIDS babies.I came across this website that you created for your son. It is without a doubt just beautiful!I lost my Makayla Marie on february 23, 2008 she was only 3 monts old. When I was reading your tragedy and how you saw death staring you in the face that is the all I see everyday allday.I found my Makayla face down and blue it haunts me everyday. She was on my bed, needless to say I cannot even enter my own room at all. I am so sorry for your loss as well baby Elijah looked like a wonderful baby. I hope to find more comforting websites like yours. You should be very proud of yourself that you were able to create such a beautiful memorial for your son. Sharing your tragedy in detail as weird as it may seem is helping others deal with their own loss. When something like this happens to you personally you never realize how many other people are faced with the same nightmare. Once again I am so sorry for your loss.

